The topic of marriage has come up in my current relationship, but I can't help but get sad sometimes.
I'm not sad about marrying the love of my life.
I'm sad because I'm mourning the dream I had when I was a little girl.
Growing up I always imagined planning my wedding with my mom and family.
The planning , the dress shopping and etc.
I wanted my family there every step of the way.
I feel cheated at times that I no longer have that family to do things with anymore.
I won't allow the dark cloud ruin these beautiful moment for me.
I've created this amazing family with people I've invited in my life